Monday, May 26, 2008

When Winter stays forever

This is not a very happy Blog! This is 1 of those days (months), when you start to feel this cold winter and the numbness will never end!! You want all sorts of un-realistic things, like turning back time, getting something stupid and feel that is the only that can make you happy!!! The sad songs hit your ears and you are alone in a room, in your office cubical or in a crowded bus/train/road! The fact that you are alone remains fresh into your herat, head and mind. Life seems to be on a long hault, everyday you wake up & the emptiness hits you...gets to you!!

Its not that we do not have a way out, its just that we are paralized not to take the way out!! I know people say, life has its ups and downs, & everytime its(life) at its all time low I tell myself, it cannot get worst! & sun has to shine now, the tunnel has to end and light will be seen any moment from now!! But now I long for the sun & the light, which never seem to be coming! Now I have reached a phase that, good things are just a pass by and the bad things are here to stay!! I know I am being - ve to the core and this will seem stupid, when I read my own words at a later date! But do you guys think I will forget the pain this day or this time of my life gives me??? I know out of the 60-65 yrs (may be) that I will live, this few months will seem like an lil drop in the vast ocean of life, but isnt it not true, that every drop 2gether makes it an ocean!!

I know for sure life is not as bad as it looks!! I know this is in my head & I know I am being over sensitive. People say its always right to listen 2 the head and do what is the "obvious" right!(logical, a=b=c). The heart is somehow always saying the opposite! These days my heart has kinda stopped talking to me atall!! I ask for solution, as I know its only the heart who will make me do the right things!! I wait for it to stop being mad @ me n speak again!!!

I know I will be out of this, and will be happy again....I know I am here cause God wants me 2 learn a lesson in this, there has to something good to this, and I am yet searching for the right answer, the right lesson.....Till then I just hope for the WINTER to get over and Sun to shine again!!! Miss those who always were with me!!

5 comments:

Dawood said...

Deya i dun know wat to say besides tht fact tht be alittle positive urself and u`ll be happy...besides frnds will always be there...if they rn`t then they never were the really close ones.
Always remember tht although i might not be available all the time but i will always be there for u..i know we`ve kinda drifted apart but its neva gonna affect our frndship
to close i`d say tht summer`s round the corner..dun worry and be happy
Luv ya loads

Deya said...

@ Dawood:-

Thanks a million!! u made my day!!! Thanks bud!! Love yea 2 !!

Omniscient De Naam said...

Sadness and Happiness carry a thin line drawn between, its just a state of mind...forever i feel Growth is the only face which is covered on top of Sadness and Happiness..You gotta create a pathway..off the difficulties you get to face in life..i wish you see spring all around soon....smile as a gift you now..take care.

All That Bytes said...

I am sure u must have got over this ridiculous feeling by now. But this feeling is quite natural in this season. Anyway try shifting your focus from it. U will like it.

Deya said...

@ Reallity:- sometimes its the "feeling" that focus on us!!