Saturday, August 16, 2008

When the inside aches




Life is said to be full of surprises & shocks!! Yet if you look properly we see it’s actually a patter of the similar activities over n over again. It’s like the 3 seasons of the year. Summer - Harsh and humid, Rainy - gray and moist & winter - cold and numb!

I guess it’s the way of looking @ things. All these days I loved rainy season specially cause it brought a lotta happiness in my heart! I loved watching the rains for hours together, let alone the fun of getting wet or having roasted corn!! But this rainy season has being so callous to me! Everyday the rain has come and I have not being able to enjoy any of it! If I stood for a while & looked @ the drops being dropped I was treated as "insane" and looked upon is such a way that its so wrong to look at falling water!! Now I do not know, it’s the way people look, or was I crazy to find happiness in simple things in life. The rain, a simple walk, panipuri by the corner of the street, etc. made me happy all these time, but now people tell me its not sane! The inside of me aches to hear things so rude n harsh it changes the very foundation of my cheerfulness! You shouldn’t be happy with small things, nor should little things worry you! Life is becoming a boring subject taught by a strict professor for endless hours!!

I know many of you good people out there will advice me not to pay heat to such annotations and look at life the way I have being looking and not let other things influence the establishment in me! But consider you being in my place and you shouting on the top of your voice trying to make yourself clear & you r telling it to some1 who you trust and who has asked you 2 share, but you repeat the same things, n he puts it down saying, you are "conspiring" against his happiness, wishes, hopes, life!! How do you guys deal with such situations! You walk out or you stay and clarify or be patient? Which is the brave thing to do? Walk away from some1 who trusted your life with, or stay and c your values being shattered by the same person!! I realize now, its so easy to advice people, but when it comes to implementing things you have said to every broken hearted friend is actually not that easy to do! n in my case, I cnt speak my heart out!! So its wee bit more difficult! It really aches inside!!

4 comments:

All That Bytes said...

This is quite sad... One shouldn't stop from doing what they like, no matter how crazy!
Serious hoke aise bhi kya mila!
The real joy of life is to find happiness from small-small things. However, small or big, happiness cannot be measured just like love.
Be happy and satisfied in what you do and care a shit for all those pessimistic views which do nothing but spoil your mood.

Deya said...

:) thanks :)

Anup said...

;) its amazing to read a person's mind. Some of you guys ( as I have been reading your blog all this while) are real thinkers ;). You delve into your actions like a lion looking back after every yard of his journey.Keep writing.

Deya said...

@ Anup:- Thankss... Its flatering....