"when people change, they still remain the same" something 1 of my v dear friends told me once!! I feel it to be so true today!! As in I see people around me, and I feel they have changed, and then I still do not know if they really have changed!!! For eg. my bro.....He s being so different after his "love life" s all settled!! I mean a guy, who didnt actually care about feelings, adores his GF like anything! Can go from pillar to post just 2 c her smile.....I obviously think, there is a lot in her to get the best out in him!!! I feel so happy to c the 2 2gether.....They sound perfectly happy(touch wood)!!!! But all this I feel is not so called "change", its just that she had the power to remove his masks!!! :)
I hope every1 finds their "soulmate" who just gets all the best things in you out and running!!!! I am also feeling happy these days.....things finally seem to settle down.....my best friend's I guess finally found some1 who truely respects her, & I cnt explain how happy that news has made me!!! I feel so happy to hear her voice so "fearless" & "bliss"!!!! I wish her all the luck in the world!!! Love u Dhwan!!! Its being nearly 2 weeks n I havnt meet the "gang", so I will make it a point to find time for the buggers!!!
Hoping for a nice week, at work and otherwise!!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
A Time.....
This is an extract from the book I was reading 2 weeks back......Just wanted to put the thought back here.......Its lovely......
A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant,
and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones
together; A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; A time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.
I guess we just have to realize the right "time" to do the right thing ...And if we look deep inside our soul, we always know the rite time!! :)
A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant,
and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones
together; A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; A time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.
I guess we just have to realize the right "time" to do the right thing ...And if we look deep inside our soul, we always know the rite time!! :)
Friday, March 21, 2008
New Office - Old Organization
I havnt Blogged for like 1 week!!! Loads of things happened over this whole week.......most of which has being just plain "shocks"!!! But yea good shocks....the kinda shocks you know you want!!!!
2 start with I was shifted to a branch closer to home, "airoli". I think it was a good thing for me, (us) as now I will be away from a lotta things which were there back @ seepz......I feel more responsible for the freedom I have....Here non of my supervisors are deputed, so I am all 2 myself!!! But then its always seen, with freedom, a sense of reponsibility comes and we always know how to handle freedom better..... I wouldnt say its all that easy being here away from a team of 17-18 people, (all 1 of a kind)!!! I miss just turing around and talking to Nikhil or just discussing some work issues with Sybil or walk up 2 Soman and say "I dunno how I will ever close this position"!!!!! Here we are just 3 of us, so its always work work n work!!!
for last 2 days of the week, I attended a v interesting training session on negosiation skills!! The trainer named "Vijay Bhand" very well knew what he was here for.....The training gave a lotta insites about the lil things we forget while @ work!! All n all for me it prooved to be a good sucessful session!!!
I am sure you wanna know atleast a lil bit about the "shocks" I mentioned above, cause the things I have written after that isnt "shocks"..... hmmmmmmmm, All I can say is, I am finally happy, delighted, excited, etc etc in life...... The descripion of shocks will come with time, for now I would just say.........."I am smiling" :) :)
2 start with I was shifted to a branch closer to home, "airoli". I think it was a good thing for me, (us) as now I will be away from a lotta things which were there back @ seepz......I feel more responsible for the freedom I have....Here non of my supervisors are deputed, so I am all 2 myself!!! But then its always seen, with freedom, a sense of reponsibility comes and we always know how to handle freedom better..... I wouldnt say its all that easy being here away from a team of 17-18 people, (all 1 of a kind)!!! I miss just turing around and talking to Nikhil or just discussing some work issues with Sybil or walk up 2 Soman and say "I dunno how I will ever close this position"!!!!! Here we are just 3 of us, so its always work work n work!!!
for last 2 days of the week, I attended a v interesting training session on negosiation skills!! The trainer named "Vijay Bhand" very well knew what he was here for.....The training gave a lotta insites about the lil things we forget while @ work!! All n all for me it prooved to be a good sucessful session!!!
I am sure you wanna know atleast a lil bit about the "shocks" I mentioned above, cause the things I have written after that isnt "shocks"..... hmmmmmmmm, All I can say is, I am finally happy, delighted, excited, etc etc in life...... The descripion of shocks will come with time, for now I would just say.........."I am smiling" :) :)
Saturday, March 15, 2008
When the world around u is on high!!!
yesterday I attended the IMS BU Meet @ Zoia Resort, Panvel. Well, on 13th March, evening I fell down right in front of my building, and sprained my leg!! I wasnt sure untill morning if I can make it to the Meet as I was not able to walk!! Somehow with medicines and disposure I did leave with 1 of our Sr. BDO, JP!! It was a joyess ride till the place "Zoia - Panvel".
The whole day was filled with excitment and games etc....(games I couldnt play due to my sprained leg)! They had a wonderful pool where loads of people spent the hot afternoon in....Every1 seemed to do something or the other in this action-packed day!!! The sun set and cocktails was served....That was the real change... Al around me people started dancing n laughing n cluttering...
That was more than 1 yr ago... n it was a spl day for me, 15th Mar 2008. If I look back at what it was... I just wanna leave a :-)
The whole day was filled with excitment and games etc....(games I couldnt play due to my sprained leg)! They had a wonderful pool where loads of people spent the hot afternoon in....Every1 seemed to do something or the other in this action-packed day!!! The sun set and cocktails was served....That was the real change... Al around me people started dancing n laughing n cluttering...
That was more than 1 yr ago... n it was a spl day for me, 15th Mar 2008. If I look back at what it was... I just wanna leave a :-)
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
What our eyes don’t see, your heart doesn’t grieve over....???
Following is the extarct from the book m currently reading. I just loved this part of the book, and it kinda gives a lil hint of my current feelings, deep deep deep down inside my heart...
“in all languages in the world there is the same proverb “what our eyes don’t see, your heart doesn’t grieve over”. Well, I say there isn’t an ounce of truth in it. The further off they are, the closer to the heart are all those feelings we try to repress and forget. If we are in exile we tend to store away every tiny memory of our roots. If we are far away from a person we love, every person on street we pass by reminds us of them.
The gospels and all the sacred text in all religions, were written in exile, in search of God’s understanding, of the faith that moves whole peoples, of the pilgrimage of souls wandering the face of the Earth. Our ancestors did not know, as we do not know, what the divinity expects from your lives – and it is out of that doubt that books are written, pictures painted, because we do not want to forget who we are, not we can…."
It reminds me of the fact that “what eyes doesn’t see, heart does grieve over.” So its time to leave!!!
“in all languages in the world there is the same proverb “what our eyes don’t see, your heart doesn’t grieve over”. Well, I say there isn’t an ounce of truth in it. The further off they are, the closer to the heart are all those feelings we try to repress and forget. If we are in exile we tend to store away every tiny memory of our roots. If we are far away from a person we love, every person on street we pass by reminds us of them.
The gospels and all the sacred text in all religions, were written in exile, in search of God’s understanding, of the faith that moves whole peoples, of the pilgrimage of souls wandering the face of the Earth. Our ancestors did not know, as we do not know, what the divinity expects from your lives – and it is out of that doubt that books are written, pictures painted, because we do not want to forget who we are, not we can…."
It reminds me of the fact that “what eyes doesn’t see, heart does grieve over.” So its time to leave!!!
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Rendez - Vous with real friends.....
After a pathtic weekend, finally the best part of weekend started, precisely sunday evening 5:30pm. I meet my real friends, Dhwani, Prachoday n Suparshv.... We drove this unusual place in Thane,( I 4got the name really) and we chatted near a creekside!! Truely speaking the place was not so good, but u know those phases "Place doesnt matter, when you are with the right kinda people".....well thatz exactly what I felt today.....Its so nice just standing and talking 2 them, they all are so special to me!!! They in their own way, make me realize, life is not all that bad, they are still there...and their presence makes life so beautiful!!! A crap place like that also, I come back home, recall and SMILE!! :) :)
Well we(the buddies mentioned above) all took same courses but in different colleges....but studied 2gether last minute work......Me n Dhawani go back 4 yrs now, (we meet during Jr. College) and to this date, she is 1 of my "special" friend....well a special friend is som1 whom I can just be myself, some1 if I do not get to talk to for months, can catch-up in 1 night, some1 who knows my family perfectly well and visa versa, bacially some1 who can proudly be called a part of my heart....Prachoday n me were in same school, we werent like good friends back then, but 2day hez really close 2 me a treasure in life and so is Suparshv...With Suparshv, I share like a spl bond, we both share a lotta stuff we both cnt share with any1 else....
Comming back to my beautiful time with them, so we spoke about practically everything under the sky, MTV Rodies, Indian Economy, Studying in USA, H1 visa,the 2008 Budget, world economies, the projects we are doing, the book I am reading, love life of each of us, etc etc..... What I realize today is, we never get 2 understand what we have, when we have it....2day I meet friends may be twice a month, and when they were there 24/7 we just din realize we were in the process of building Happy Memories for life!!!! I am lucky to have them by my side even 2day, and I do not 4get to cherish every moment spent with them....
1 more strange thing I saw in all of us is that all of us are scared of happiness in life. We are all confused about the kinda choices we should make!!! I guess its da age thatz confusing us so much!! Whatever it be, being with them is plain fun.....Hope to see them ASAP..... 2mw is Monday, another week...hoping for a lil more fun and a pinch of happiness!! :) :)
Well we(the buddies mentioned above) all took same courses but in different colleges....but studied 2gether last minute work......Me n Dhawani go back 4 yrs now, (we meet during Jr. College) and to this date, she is 1 of my "special" friend....well a special friend is som1 whom I can just be myself, some1 if I do not get to talk to for months, can catch-up in 1 night, some1 who knows my family perfectly well and visa versa, bacially some1 who can proudly be called a part of my heart....Prachoday n me were in same school, we werent like good friends back then, but 2day hez really close 2 me a treasure in life and so is Suparshv...With Suparshv, I share like a spl bond, we both share a lotta stuff we both cnt share with any1 else....
Comming back to my beautiful time with them, so we spoke about practically everything under the sky, MTV Rodies, Indian Economy, Studying in USA, H1 visa,the 2008 Budget, world economies, the projects we are doing, the book I am reading, love life of each of us, etc etc..... What I realize today is, we never get 2 understand what we have, when we have it....2day I meet friends may be twice a month, and when they were there 24/7 we just din realize we were in the process of building Happy Memories for life!!!! I am lucky to have them by my side even 2day, and I do not 4get to cherish every moment spent with them....
1 more strange thing I saw in all of us is that all of us are scared of happiness in life. We are all confused about the kinda choices we should make!!! I guess its da age thatz confusing us so much!! Whatever it be, being with them is plain fun.....Hope to see them ASAP..... 2mw is Monday, another week...hoping for a lil more fun and a pinch of happiness!! :) :)
Happy Women's Day - Mom
Yesterday was "Women's Day" 8th March 2008!! Well, if u ask me I just think its a day to get good business for Hallmarks & archies!! Neverther the less, since its "women's day" I think its ok!!! :P :P
I really do not know when,why or who started it....But it make sense to atleast take a day out & show some respect the women in our lives. Like our "moms" - they are the most unique kinda human beings, God has ever made!! I mean their love is so unconditional, and so down to earth, we hardly notice their presence....every morning, without doubt the coffee will be @ the table, steaming hot just as I like it, she will always know where any/all of my clothes are, not to mention she always just comes to know if I had a bad day @ work or else where!!! I mean u just cannot hide from her....She just stands right at the door of my room and by 1 look I know, she is here to tell me, she knows I am in pain, and her greatness, if she realizes I am not in a state of mind to share, she will quitely walk away!!!!
She has taught me practially everything, rite from holding a pencil to 2day how to actually take responsibilty of our work @ home or otherwise....Obviously like every other mother-daughter relation we have our set of fights!! But I just cannot stay mad @ her!!! I mean she will just come up to me next moment, and talk as if nothing was wrong!! She is the only human being on earth, who doesnt have emotions like "ego", "jealousy" , "bertayal"....I mean, we have like a huge arrugment, n I will be as usual in my room sulking, and there she is in an hr or so, a table full of my "fav" dishes!! and moreover just talks 2 me as if nothing is wrong!!! It needs huge courage to actually stand there in front of her, and the guilt in my heart cannot be explained in words...She makes my life so easy!!! The 1 thing mamma always teaches me, no situation is bad enough that u need to run away, come face and you will always see the ice break!!!
This 1se for you mamma, for never making me realize how hard it is 2 stay with a person like me!!! For always just standing in front of me protecting me and never taking the crdit for it.....If today people like me, or appritiate me for the person I am, its only cause of u.....Since I was a lil girl, I used 2 make beleive I being like u, by wearing ur shoes and putting on ur purse so that every1 would love me as they do 2 u....but 2day I know, how much ever I try to "fit into your shoes" I will never be able 2 achive what you have achieved!!! Nevertheless if I am told I am like my MOM, I would understand, I have achieved what it takes to be a good human being!!! Thanks mom for always being there....I love u!!!! We love u, MSA, dad n me!!! U r the best!!!
I really do not know when,why or who started it....But it make sense to atleast take a day out & show some respect the women in our lives. Like our "moms" - they are the most unique kinda human beings, God has ever made!! I mean their love is so unconditional, and so down to earth, we hardly notice their presence....every morning, without doubt the coffee will be @ the table, steaming hot just as I like it, she will always know where any/all of my clothes are, not to mention she always just comes to know if I had a bad day @ work or else where!!! I mean u just cannot hide from her....She just stands right at the door of my room and by 1 look I know, she is here to tell me, she knows I am in pain, and her greatness, if she realizes I am not in a state of mind to share, she will quitely walk away!!!!
She has taught me practially everything, rite from holding a pencil to 2day how to actually take responsibilty of our work @ home or otherwise....Obviously like every other mother-daughter relation we have our set of fights!! But I just cannot stay mad @ her!!! I mean she will just come up to me next moment, and talk as if nothing was wrong!! She is the only human being on earth, who doesnt have emotions like "ego", "jealousy" , "bertayal"....I mean, we have like a huge arrugment, n I will be as usual in my room sulking, and there she is in an hr or so, a table full of my "fav" dishes!! and moreover just talks 2 me as if nothing is wrong!!! It needs huge courage to actually stand there in front of her, and the guilt in my heart cannot be explained in words...She makes my life so easy!!! The 1 thing mamma always teaches me, no situation is bad enough that u need to run away, come face and you will always see the ice break!!!
This 1se for you mamma, for never making me realize how hard it is 2 stay with a person like me!!! For always just standing in front of me protecting me and never taking the crdit for it.....If today people like me, or appritiate me for the person I am, its only cause of u.....Since I was a lil girl, I used 2 make beleive I being like u, by wearing ur shoes and putting on ur purse so that every1 would love me as they do 2 u....but 2day I know, how much ever I try to "fit into your shoes" I will never be able 2 achive what you have achieved!!! Nevertheless if I am told I am like my MOM, I would understand, I have achieved what it takes to be a good human being!!! Thanks mom for always being there....I love u!!!! We love u, MSA, dad n me!!! U r the best!!!
Friday, March 7, 2008
Not written by me, but felt by my heart!! - "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"
Since my a huge fav of music, the main thing that attracts me are the lyrics!! This 1 of of those songs, which has ammazing lyrics...This 1se Boulevard of Broken Dreams....
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleepsand
I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk aloneI walk alone
I walk aloneI walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone I walk a...
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Love is 1 big illusion......is it?
"Love" - People have given/taken lives just trying to describe this emotion!! 1 emotion that drives I guess all of our other emotions....and yet it sometimes is an illusion!!! Well if you honestly ask me, I wouldnt know what it is really!! Is it a state of trance, a way of life, the only way of life, an pleasurly pain or just pain!!! I guess for me its a mixture of all of this!! As a young girl, like all of us, I too have read loads of "love stories" and seen even more movies, all trying to proof, "only love is real"... But I do not think, this explains love for us....I think no1 can actually describe "love" for another!!! Its a very personal and individual choice... Like for my friend Nikhil he is most elited when he sees a cricket match(India winning, and Sachin scoring 100), or watching Manu win with some mind blowing goals, or he buying a new perfume....I think this describes love for him...and definately non of our movies/novels talk about this kinda love....
We all make mistakes of painting love with a vision of these illusions in mind....a person who doesnt have these illusions, have a plain canvas he/she will paint his own way of love and will be much happier I guess......I also like all other fools have a filled canvas and now try 2 depict or "fit" reality into this painting.....I wish I could undo all this....but I guess thatz Life!!!
We all make mistakes of painting love with a vision of these illusions in mind....a person who doesnt have these illusions, have a plain canvas he/she will paint his own way of love and will be much happier I guess......I also like all other fools have a filled canvas and now try 2 depict or "fit" reality into this painting.....I wish I could undo all this....but I guess thatz Life!!!
Y is the title so!!
I am writing a blog after like 3-4 yrs now!! My 1st blog has got deleted long ago, so its I guess important for me to update whatz new in my life...and why is it a roller coaster Ride!!!
The 1st major thing in my life is my 1st work exp. I am now working for past 9 months and its being 1 heck of an experience!! During lectures in Grad school, we were always told, its a bad world out there, you have no1 by ur side and we kept thinking how can some be more crewl than these profs and the exams which kept popping every 6 months, not to forget every week presentations and project submissions!!! But I was so sadly mistaken!! It turns out, they were the sweetest and wonderful years of life so far!!! Here its like every1 is running a race to achieve something..( I am too young to know what it is).....If its money, then how come the CEOs and the heads are always so tensed, worried, stressed!!! N it definately cannot be happiness, cause that would contradict the working till wee hrs of the day, always on the move, and hardly any time for the loved 1se...!!!! I wonder if any1 really knows what is this race about....Since every1 is running I have also started warming up for the big race...
The other pretty funny thing is, all our life we are taught you should always listen 2 your heart, be good to everyone, do good things in life and you will be happy.....where as here the 1st lesson I learnt is, always use the brain(dnt even let your heart speak), always strategize and move ahead(formal way of saying, be selfish) and only then you will get to the top!!! Really strange world this is!!!
I have made a few "aquantance" @ work, they are good and help whenever they can.....But real friends can be made only when we are not exposed to all this complex environment!! I miss being with friends now, but make it a point to meet them every fortnightly!! I guess 2 weeks ago I meet Dhwani, Suparshv, Prachodaya....they are also working and gone ways! Apart from them I really value my sister(archita) aka Monu Singh Aluwalia and my bro (Arka) aka dada in my life....They keep me grounded and love me unconditionally. so basically the whole roler coaster is due to the age where I can have choices and have the liberty to make them, but its still not time to choose!!
The 1st major thing in my life is my 1st work exp. I am now working for past 9 months and its being 1 heck of an experience!! During lectures in Grad school, we were always told, its a bad world out there, you have no1 by ur side and we kept thinking how can some be more crewl than these profs and the exams which kept popping every 6 months, not to forget every week presentations and project submissions!!! But I was so sadly mistaken!! It turns out, they were the sweetest and wonderful years of life so far!!! Here its like every1 is running a race to achieve something..( I am too young to know what it is).....If its money, then how come the CEOs and the heads are always so tensed, worried, stressed!!! N it definately cannot be happiness, cause that would contradict the working till wee hrs of the day, always on the move, and hardly any time for the loved 1se...!!!! I wonder if any1 really knows what is this race about....Since every1 is running I have also started warming up for the big race...
The other pretty funny thing is, all our life we are taught you should always listen 2 your heart, be good to everyone, do good things in life and you will be happy.....where as here the 1st lesson I learnt is, always use the brain(dnt even let your heart speak), always strategize and move ahead(formal way of saying, be selfish) and only then you will get to the top!!! Really strange world this is!!!
I have made a few "aquantance" @ work, they are good and help whenever they can.....But real friends can be made only when we are not exposed to all this complex environment!! I miss being with friends now, but make it a point to meet them every fortnightly!! I guess 2 weeks ago I meet Dhwani, Suparshv, Prachodaya....they are also working and gone ways! Apart from them I really value my sister(archita) aka Monu Singh Aluwalia and my bro (Arka) aka dada in my life....They keep me grounded and love me unconditionally. so basically the whole roler coaster is due to the age where I can have choices and have the liberty to make them, but its still not time to choose!!
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