Days pass by somehow
But nights are a wagon of pain
Injuries may heal with time
But marks will always remain
Restless on my comfortable bed
I toss and turn and try to sleep
But thoughts are bulking my head
And have formed a huge heap
The past is flashing its scorching light beams
Tearing me apart , breaking me at the seams
The darkness of my life is more visible in the dark
And now I am trying to give it a voice , trying to speak my heart..
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
The new Sunshine :)
These days the songs have no meaning atall!! n in this jungle of bad songs, I found sun shine...
The song from the movie "love Ajj Kal" - Yeh Dooriyan" ...... Its 1 of those songs u can listen to for hrs together... I have being hooked to the ipod & my phone, with only this 1 song.....
The song from the movie "love Ajj Kal" - Yeh Dooriyan" ...... Its 1 of those songs u can listen to for hrs together... I have being hooked to the ipod & my phone, with only this 1 song.....
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
The Mind & The heart.....
Its a blog I read recently n totally went completely bonkers.....
This is the link to it http://happy-blissfull.blogspot.com/2009_06_01_archive.html
Below is the blog....
Following our love is painful. Forgetting our love is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering "Said in Page 46,Book : By the River Piedra, I sat down and wept,Author : Paulo Coelho-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It was around 3 a.m. on a rainy night. The moon was playing hide and seek in the dark clouds. And as a cool breeze blew melodiously to shave my face, I was there all alone in my room, by the window, with a novel in my hand.
“Following our love is painful. Forgetting our love is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering ”, I read in the book.
Something about those lines struck me hard. Something about those lines made me feel uneasy. Something about those lines made me immediately close the novel without reading it further. And something about those lines took me into my past.
“Given a chance Sai, I would want a life of which I have no desires and regrets”, said one of my best friends during a casual talk. “I neither want happiness nor do I want misery. I just do not want to desire for anything. Whatever I have desired for, I never got it anyways. So, I will take whatever life has to offer and not regret anything. That is the best way to live”, my friend finished.
It seemed a beautiful thought. But then, Something about those words pinched me as soon as I heard them.“ Is that possible ? ”, I asked my friend immediately.
“ What ? ”, asked my friend.“A life without regrets.. Is that possible at all ?”, I asked again.
“Yes Sai.. All you need is a lot of mental strength and a bad memory ;)”, my friend replied jocularly.
“Hmm..”, I said.
We changed topics and life moved on. But then those words continue to haunt me through the years. And tonight, as i was reading those lines in the novel, they only served as a gentle reminder for the unanswered question.
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“Heyy heart, are you there ?” asked my mind.
“ Yes dear.. I am always there whenever you want to speak to me :)”, replied my heart sweetly.
“Ya Ya, I know.. So, what do you think about it ?”, asked my mind.
“About what ?”, asked my heart.
“About that only yaar.. The regret.. I have suffered enough now.. I want an answer. Do you think by not desiring anything and by having a bad memory, we can have a life of no regrets ?”
“Hmmm.. What made you think I would have an answer at all to that question ?”, asked my heart.
“Because ‘regret’ is a feeling. And as you always say, ‘feelings are your department and only you know and understand them’ ! ”, replied my mind.
“You have become intelligent in dealing with me.. haven’t you ?”, replied my heart.
“Hmm.. Years of experience with you have taught me that there is no point in arguing with you. So, I am resigned to understanding and accepting your ways”, replied my mind.
“That’s lovely dear.. But then, I still wonder what made you think I can answer that question and moreover, even if I did answer, what makes you think it would be the right one ? !”, asked my heart.
“Would you answer it or not ? Leave the reasoning and judging of its correctness to me.. Just answer !”, commanded my mind.
“Hmm.. There you go ! :) You have already answered that question and that too just now dear ! So, there is nothing left for me to say !”, replied my heart.
“What ? !! Are you crazy ? When and what did I answer ? Heart, I know that you are mad. So, do not prove it to me time and again ! Just talk straight and talk the point please”, said my mind frustrated.
“Hmm ok.. Dear, as you said regret is certainly a feeling ! And so it belongs to my department. But unfortunately, when you and your reasoning, you and your judging, and you and your decision making skills use my regretful ‘feelings’, then things, life and attitudes change !”, said my heart
“I didn’t understand.. Can you be clearer ?”, asked my mind.
“Hmm, let us take the novel’s story for instance. The girl is in love with the boy. Love - a feeling. But she does not have the courage to stand by it. Courage – a feeling. The absence of courage and the pain of his loss thereafter led her to regret it all. Regret – a feeling. And thereafter, she only used regret to make a decision about how her life should be led ahead. She used her ‘regret’ - reasoned, judged and decided - how life should be led from there on. Right or wrong, She decided, based on regret, she wouldn’t love him anymore. She decided, based on regret, that she wouldn’t risk anymore. She decided, based on regret, that she would be strong to never think of her love again. She decided, based on regret, that she would change and want nothing from life because she never got what she wanted in the first place ! She decided based on the regret that she would forget her past. And she made and followed all her decisions based on that one feeling and to avoid that one feeling – Regret !”, said my heart.
“Hmm.. ”, said my mind.
“And as you see dear, while there were three great feelings involved in the story - love, courage and regret – in the end, she used only regret to make all her decisions and and changed her life accordingly.”, said my heart.
“Hmm.. So do you say it is wrong ?”, my mind asked.
“It is not for me to say that dear. To reason it as right or wrong is your department. But then, did you think as to what has she got so far for all the decisions she made based on regret ? She got “Silence”, which she interprets as peace and which she treats as “no regrets” anymore !”, finished my heart.
“How do you know that its not peace, no regrets and only silence ?”, asked my mind.“Because, peace, regrets and silence are all feelings dear :)”, said my heart.
“Hmm.. So what do you say ? A life of no regrets is impossible ?”, asked my mind.
“No dear.. It certainly is possible”, replied my heart.
“Huh ? !! How is that possible ?”, asked my mind.
“Sai dear, every human being is bestowed two critical abilities - An ability to think and an ability to feel. But then which of the abilities is the master and which of the abilities is the slave is what makes the difference between loving our life and regretting our life”, said my heart.
“Hmm..”, said my mind.
“Dear, When you use our thinking to follow my love, when we together exhibit strength & endure the pain of our love, when we show courage to stand up for what we love - We begin to experience, live and love life. And in that lovely life no matter what troubles come in our way, no matter how painful those troubles may be, no matter how humiliating those troubles can be, and no matter how many sacrifices need to be made, in the end – Our love will win. Dear, Right from a simple love to study higher, or love to work in a creative field, or any love that you are passionate about - you have to use your thoughts, your hardwork, your time, your strength and even your pain, humiliation and sacrifices to go after what you love. In short, if you follow me and go after what I want, I can lead you to a life of where we don’t feel any regrets. But if I were forced to follow you and do what you want, I am sure we both will regret in the end. And that is because to follow your decisions in itself is a great regret for me. It is, for me, equivalent to accepting that the love i hold in me is something inferior to the thoughts and decisions you make.”, said my heart passionately.
“How dare you say that ? ! You say following me makes you regret ? ! Remember heart, It is my mental strength that keeps you unaffected of failures ! It is my mental strength that keeps you away from feeling miserable. It is I who save you from getting hurt ! And it is I and my intelligence who get you the respect people give you. And you say you regret following me ?”, retorted my mind angrily.
“Hmm dear.. What mental strength are you talking about ? Strength is in following what you love. Not in running away from it. And it is not me who is afraid of failures dear. It is you. It is not me who needs other’s respect. It is you. Remember Sai, in the end, the people whose words you are following, the people whose decisions you are living and the people whose respect you are craving for will all leave the world. They have to leave. The only person who will be with you is me and unfortunately you are making me ‘empty’ & ‘silent’. And with an ‘empty’ and ‘silent’ me, all you can do in the end is regret Sai. On the contrary, if you were to follow me, not care about what people say or think, not care about the rules established for you to follow, not be scared of the challenges that come your way, then in the end when you and me are alone, I’d have love, you’d have memories and together we would have ‘lived’.”, finished my heart.
“Hmm.. Sounds romantic ! But totally impractical. Who on earth would understand that I was following you and that I was in love and for love. Who would understand that I am and I would in the end not regret anything that I do ? And who would respect me for it ?”, asked my mind.
“Sai, when you understand yourself and when you don’t regret what you do.. there is no need for anyone else to understand you ! But when you don’t understand yourself and regret not having done what you wanted, it doesn’t matter who else understands you ! Because their understanding is of no use to you then ! Also, any respect out of such useless understanding, is worthless too. So, as long as you understand yourself and follow your love, even if the whole world thinks you are crazy, it'll make no difference to you. But then if you don’t understand yourself and cannot in the end justify what you did with your life, even if the whole world respects and understands you, it’d make no difference to you !”, replied my heart.
“Hmm.. And how do I know that what you have said is all the right thing to do ? ”
“Hmm.. Sai, in the matters of the heart and feelings, there are no right or wrong decisions. There are only “Human” decisions. And yet inspite of it all, if you want a proof, you’d see that when you are born as a human child Sai, you are expressing and seeking love. When you are dying all alone or amongst your loved ones, you are again expressing and seeking love. Even in between, at all the critical points of life, you are expressing and seeking the love of the almighty. And yet every time a decision to follow your love needs to be made, you “think” ! And it is such a shame Sai that you even think before following your love ! It is nothing more than an insult to the very love that you are born, brought up and die in. Just remember this one thing Sai – Greatness, respect, obedience, name, fame, satisfaction and peace may all lie in liking what you do and making me follow you, but then LIFE lies in doing what you love and making you follow me ! Remember Sai, we – the heart and the mind - only live once together in this world ! And who is the master and who is the slave is what will make the difference between love and regret over your life.”, said my heart.
My mind didn’t speak after that. I moved to my table, calmly opened and began reading the novel again. And as i turned page after page to read out what the girl in the story has eventually decided to do in her life, there was a storm in my heart & rain in my eyes.
This is the link to it http://happy-blissfull.blogspot.com/2009_06_01_archive.html
Below is the blog....
Following our love is painful. Forgetting our love is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering "Said in Page 46,Book : By the River Piedra, I sat down and wept,Author : Paulo Coelho-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It was around 3 a.m. on a rainy night. The moon was playing hide and seek in the dark clouds. And as a cool breeze blew melodiously to shave my face, I was there all alone in my room, by the window, with a novel in my hand.
“Following our love is painful. Forgetting our love is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering ”, I read in the book.
Something about those lines struck me hard. Something about those lines made me feel uneasy. Something about those lines made me immediately close the novel without reading it further. And something about those lines took me into my past.
“Given a chance Sai, I would want a life of which I have no desires and regrets”, said one of my best friends during a casual talk. “I neither want happiness nor do I want misery. I just do not want to desire for anything. Whatever I have desired for, I never got it anyways. So, I will take whatever life has to offer and not regret anything. That is the best way to live”, my friend finished.
It seemed a beautiful thought. But then, Something about those words pinched me as soon as I heard them.“ Is that possible ? ”, I asked my friend immediately.
“ What ? ”, asked my friend.“A life without regrets.. Is that possible at all ?”, I asked again.
“Yes Sai.. All you need is a lot of mental strength and a bad memory ;)”, my friend replied jocularly.
“Hmm..”, I said.
We changed topics and life moved on. But then those words continue to haunt me through the years. And tonight, as i was reading those lines in the novel, they only served as a gentle reminder for the unanswered question.
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“Heyy heart, are you there ?” asked my mind.
“ Yes dear.. I am always there whenever you want to speak to me :)”, replied my heart sweetly.
“Ya Ya, I know.. So, what do you think about it ?”, asked my mind.
“About what ?”, asked my heart.
“About that only yaar.. The regret.. I have suffered enough now.. I want an answer. Do you think by not desiring anything and by having a bad memory, we can have a life of no regrets ?”
“Hmmm.. What made you think I would have an answer at all to that question ?”, asked my heart.
“Because ‘regret’ is a feeling. And as you always say, ‘feelings are your department and only you know and understand them’ ! ”, replied my mind.
“You have become intelligent in dealing with me.. haven’t you ?”, replied my heart.
“Hmm.. Years of experience with you have taught me that there is no point in arguing with you. So, I am resigned to understanding and accepting your ways”, replied my mind.
“That’s lovely dear.. But then, I still wonder what made you think I can answer that question and moreover, even if I did answer, what makes you think it would be the right one ? !”, asked my heart.
“Would you answer it or not ? Leave the reasoning and judging of its correctness to me.. Just answer !”, commanded my mind.
“Hmm.. There you go ! :) You have already answered that question and that too just now dear ! So, there is nothing left for me to say !”, replied my heart.
“What ? !! Are you crazy ? When and what did I answer ? Heart, I know that you are mad. So, do not prove it to me time and again ! Just talk straight and talk the point please”, said my mind frustrated.
“Hmm ok.. Dear, as you said regret is certainly a feeling ! And so it belongs to my department. But unfortunately, when you and your reasoning, you and your judging, and you and your decision making skills use my regretful ‘feelings’, then things, life and attitudes change !”, said my heart
“I didn’t understand.. Can you be clearer ?”, asked my mind.
“Hmm, let us take the novel’s story for instance. The girl is in love with the boy. Love - a feeling. But she does not have the courage to stand by it. Courage – a feeling. The absence of courage and the pain of his loss thereafter led her to regret it all. Regret – a feeling. And thereafter, she only used regret to make a decision about how her life should be led ahead. She used her ‘regret’ - reasoned, judged and decided - how life should be led from there on. Right or wrong, She decided, based on regret, she wouldn’t love him anymore. She decided, based on regret, that she wouldn’t risk anymore. She decided, based on regret, that she would be strong to never think of her love again. She decided, based on regret, that she would change and want nothing from life because she never got what she wanted in the first place ! She decided based on the regret that she would forget her past. And she made and followed all her decisions based on that one feeling and to avoid that one feeling – Regret !”, said my heart.
“Hmm.. ”, said my mind.
“And as you see dear, while there were three great feelings involved in the story - love, courage and regret – in the end, she used only regret to make all her decisions and and changed her life accordingly.”, said my heart.
“Hmm.. So do you say it is wrong ?”, my mind asked.
“It is not for me to say that dear. To reason it as right or wrong is your department. But then, did you think as to what has she got so far for all the decisions she made based on regret ? She got “Silence”, which she interprets as peace and which she treats as “no regrets” anymore !”, finished my heart.
“How do you know that its not peace, no regrets and only silence ?”, asked my mind.“Because, peace, regrets and silence are all feelings dear :)”, said my heart.
“Hmm.. So what do you say ? A life of no regrets is impossible ?”, asked my mind.
“No dear.. It certainly is possible”, replied my heart.
“Huh ? !! How is that possible ?”, asked my mind.
“Sai dear, every human being is bestowed two critical abilities - An ability to think and an ability to feel. But then which of the abilities is the master and which of the abilities is the slave is what makes the difference between loving our life and regretting our life”, said my heart.
“Hmm..”, said my mind.
“Dear, When you use our thinking to follow my love, when we together exhibit strength & endure the pain of our love, when we show courage to stand up for what we love - We begin to experience, live and love life. And in that lovely life no matter what troubles come in our way, no matter how painful those troubles may be, no matter how humiliating those troubles can be, and no matter how many sacrifices need to be made, in the end – Our love will win. Dear, Right from a simple love to study higher, or love to work in a creative field, or any love that you are passionate about - you have to use your thoughts, your hardwork, your time, your strength and even your pain, humiliation and sacrifices to go after what you love. In short, if you follow me and go after what I want, I can lead you to a life of where we don’t feel any regrets. But if I were forced to follow you and do what you want, I am sure we both will regret in the end. And that is because to follow your decisions in itself is a great regret for me. It is, for me, equivalent to accepting that the love i hold in me is something inferior to the thoughts and decisions you make.”, said my heart passionately.
“How dare you say that ? ! You say following me makes you regret ? ! Remember heart, It is my mental strength that keeps you unaffected of failures ! It is my mental strength that keeps you away from feeling miserable. It is I who save you from getting hurt ! And it is I and my intelligence who get you the respect people give you. And you say you regret following me ?”, retorted my mind angrily.
“Hmm dear.. What mental strength are you talking about ? Strength is in following what you love. Not in running away from it. And it is not me who is afraid of failures dear. It is you. It is not me who needs other’s respect. It is you. Remember Sai, in the end, the people whose words you are following, the people whose decisions you are living and the people whose respect you are craving for will all leave the world. They have to leave. The only person who will be with you is me and unfortunately you are making me ‘empty’ & ‘silent’. And with an ‘empty’ and ‘silent’ me, all you can do in the end is regret Sai. On the contrary, if you were to follow me, not care about what people say or think, not care about the rules established for you to follow, not be scared of the challenges that come your way, then in the end when you and me are alone, I’d have love, you’d have memories and together we would have ‘lived’.”, finished my heart.
“Hmm.. Sounds romantic ! But totally impractical. Who on earth would understand that I was following you and that I was in love and for love. Who would understand that I am and I would in the end not regret anything that I do ? And who would respect me for it ?”, asked my mind.
“Sai, when you understand yourself and when you don’t regret what you do.. there is no need for anyone else to understand you ! But when you don’t understand yourself and regret not having done what you wanted, it doesn’t matter who else understands you ! Because their understanding is of no use to you then ! Also, any respect out of such useless understanding, is worthless too. So, as long as you understand yourself and follow your love, even if the whole world thinks you are crazy, it'll make no difference to you. But then if you don’t understand yourself and cannot in the end justify what you did with your life, even if the whole world respects and understands you, it’d make no difference to you !”, replied my heart.
“Hmm.. And how do I know that what you have said is all the right thing to do ? ”
“Hmm.. Sai, in the matters of the heart and feelings, there are no right or wrong decisions. There are only “Human” decisions. And yet inspite of it all, if you want a proof, you’d see that when you are born as a human child Sai, you are expressing and seeking love. When you are dying all alone or amongst your loved ones, you are again expressing and seeking love. Even in between, at all the critical points of life, you are expressing and seeking the love of the almighty. And yet every time a decision to follow your love needs to be made, you “think” ! And it is such a shame Sai that you even think before following your love ! It is nothing more than an insult to the very love that you are born, brought up and die in. Just remember this one thing Sai – Greatness, respect, obedience, name, fame, satisfaction and peace may all lie in liking what you do and making me follow you, but then LIFE lies in doing what you love and making you follow me ! Remember Sai, we – the heart and the mind - only live once together in this world ! And who is the master and who is the slave is what will make the difference between love and regret over your life.”, said my heart.
My mind didn’t speak after that. I moved to my table, calmly opened and began reading the novel again. And as i turned page after page to read out what the girl in the story has eventually decided to do in her life, there was a storm in my heart & rain in my eyes.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Home
A melodious Song....I have being listening to recently....
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
May be surrounded byA million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded byA million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my runBaby,
I’m doneI gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonightI’m coming back home
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
May be surrounded byA million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded byA million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my runBaby,
I’m doneI gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonightI’m coming back home
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
The best day of ur life
We all have our best days of our lives.... Generally the day when something v BIG happened in your life... Or may be many small things together... Your wedding,(may not be the best thing, but its definitely BIG ;)), your 1st job, ur 1st promotion, your 1st love, 1st kiss etc. Incidents like this together make memories, stories you tell your friends, ur grand children...
But I think u remember them, when u have people to share it with... sure you are not in isolation when ur getting married...but when its 2 the person u love, n when ur best frnds are around, thats when it becomes memorable... u recall all the silly jokes u guys must hv cracked abt ur marriage on the D day n laugh....feel nostalgic...so basically the "event" becomes "eventful" only when the right kind of people are around to share it with you.
I had 1 of such BIG events in my Life today, n sure I hv my family n my friends to share it with... but I dnt have the 1 person I want to share it with the most... The 1 person I always discussed this stuff with...n honestly m happy, but there is emptiness...Well life moves on n so will this...
Monday, July 13, 2009
The Day when u c it all
Has it ever happened with any of u guys? You buy a diff T-shirt…..yes its may be a different yellow, but its beautiful n u love it... U wear it n flaunt it around everywhere... n people look at u... u love the attention u enjoy every bit of interest u get....n days pass by....ur happy all these days ur happy that u made such a right choice!!! Ur friends were So wrong, but u were right... n yellow suits u!!
Then 1 day... ur wearing the Tee n walking on da road, n u see your reflection on the glass window of a mall & u c the Tee, "yukssss!! Its bright yellow, its got White patches all over" its exactly the kind of Tacky clothes u comment on when ur out with ur frnds for coffee n a girl enters da coffee shop looking happy & wearing that!!! N then when da world looks @ u, u can literally hear their mind (with the drums in da background) " look @ da top!!".... "man that’s tooo tacky" " dnt look @ her"!!!u wanna run home & the moment ur home u remove it & through it in the corner of ur wardrobe... n u never wear the top again... :) Its always safe 2 listen 2 ur frnds...
After months while looking for another dress, u came acrosss the yellow top, n it reminds u of the time u used 2 get the attention when u wore the top all time... I guess in life, we need such yellow tops so that we know which are the good 1se, & learn to keep them handy to choose the right TOP ;)
Then 1 day... ur wearing the Tee n walking on da road, n u see your reflection on the glass window of a mall & u c the Tee, "yukssss!! Its bright yellow, its got White patches all over" its exactly the kind of Tacky clothes u comment on when ur out with ur frnds for coffee n a girl enters da coffee shop looking happy & wearing that!!! N then when da world looks @ u, u can literally hear their mind (with the drums in da background) " look @ da top!!".... "man that’s tooo tacky" " dnt look @ her"!!!u wanna run home & the moment ur home u remove it & through it in the corner of ur wardrobe... n u never wear the top again... :) Its always safe 2 listen 2 ur frnds...
After months while looking for another dress, u came acrosss the yellow top, n it reminds u of the time u used 2 get the attention when u wore the top all time... I guess in life, we need such yellow tops so that we know which are the good 1se, & learn to keep them handy to choose the right TOP ;)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Music OR Lyrics
Have you guys ever wondered which is more IMP Music or Lyrics? I know we need both to make a melody, but if ever we had to choose what gives soul to the song is it the music or the lyrics?
There are few songs which do not work well due to the music given to it, some because the words do not make sense! But what do we, as listeners connect to? n how does that help us enjoy the song? Some songs have weired words in them, yet work v well... like "dum dara dum dara wqt wqt..." tere bin of Guru, A.R Reheman compostion..
I cearly am confused n do not have a proper answer to it. But yes, I prefer songs with good lyrics. I wanna know how you guys determine your choice n why so!
There are few songs which do not work well due to the music given to it, some because the words do not make sense! But what do we, as listeners connect to? n how does that help us enjoy the song? Some songs have weired words in them, yet work v well... like "dum dara dum dara wqt wqt..." tere bin of Guru, A.R Reheman compostion..
I cearly am confused n do not have a proper answer to it. But yes, I prefer songs with good lyrics. I wanna know how you guys determine your choice n why so!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Doesnt Make a Difference
A boy n girl meet, they fall in love & then fall apart, girl moves on, boy asks for fogiveness & a life back together, girl says, "doesnt make a difference anymore. You are past, n long gone. I have a new life, n I cannot fit you into this part. I respect your feelings, but it doesnt make a difference to me. ITS OVER." The poor heart broken boy collects his shattered pieces of heart n trys to mends it alone. Now most of you must be thinking, guy makes new friends n moves on over a period of time. Thats how most of these "similar" love stories end. lets stop for a moment, n go to the part where, it doesnt make a difference to the girl.
I am not judging her, but doesnt such small events become truning point in a person's life? Its easy for people who have the determination not to let things effect you. Is it true? There is such emence self-control that it really doesnt matter. Lets say agreed. But what about the poor boy, there he is walking happily on the road thinking, I have the best life because I have my "twin soul" with me, n Bam! "it doesnt make a difference". What should he be doing? Yes practially he wnt die, n probably he will have to move on as nothing stops. But what about the effect of such a thing in his life? It can be life altering!! He can stop beleiving in "trust", or may be start a new set of values all together.
yet again, it doesnt make a difference, does it!
I am not judging her, but doesnt such small events become truning point in a person's life? Its easy for people who have the determination not to let things effect you. Is it true? There is such emence self-control that it really doesnt matter. Lets say agreed. But what about the poor boy, there he is walking happily on the road thinking, I have the best life because I have my "twin soul" with me, n Bam! "it doesnt make a difference". What should he be doing? Yes practially he wnt die, n probably he will have to move on as nothing stops. But what about the effect of such a thing in his life? It can be life altering!! He can stop beleiving in "trust", or may be start a new set of values all together.
yet again, it doesnt make a difference, does it!
Monday, April 13, 2009
8.5 or not coming
As u guys know, recruiting is like meeting a new joker every hour... So 1 of the funniest jokers who I meet recently.... is Venkatsamy Silarajan! As u may realize from da name, the guy's communication skills are just like his name!! So now he was interviewed with Patni n then an US client everything happened n he got an offer from us.... Since the day I hv sent him an offer, he used 2 call me practically everyday tht too after work hrs with some or the other query... Like 1 day, when I was having diner he calls 2 ask, "Dheya, I going medical test 2mrw, I take urine with me or do therhe" !!! I was like :-O u do it the way ur comfortable!!!! After all this fucking nonsense.... 24 hrs before his date of joining he mesges me, "I not happy with sal, I want 8.5". Now we had given him 8.2, so it was like crying for only 30k..... somehow I convinced him n he joined on 9th April. When he gets the documents, his graduation degree says his name is "VICTOR SALIRAJA" he has like 8 yrs work ex, n his 1st company offer letter name is also "VICTOR" (for those wondering y VICTOR, he has done his Grad/Post Grad from UK, n used an alias name) FUCKKKKKKKKK then all day on 9th april we tried 2 figure out if he is Venkat/Victor.... n finally @ 6:00pm in da evening he got hired as VEnkat n he promised to get an affidavit tht he is Venkat!!!!
well its not over yettttt. He mesges me on Saturday morning 9:10 am, "I want 8.5 or not coming, wt my work location. reply by 12pm"I got so angry on him, I spoke 2 my boss n during the weekend my boss spoke 2 him, n on Sunday night he mesged I will cum in 8.2 Lacks. Not so surprisingly on Monday he doesnt turn up, n @ around 2:00pm mails I will join after 2 days!!!! FUCKKKK.... FInally we revoked his offer n now he is calling n sayings " I sorry. I making lots of mistakhas, I cuming I liking Patni"!!!!
If I everr meet him... I wud kill him I swear 2 GODDDDDDDDD
well its not over yettttt. He mesges me on Saturday morning 9:10 am, "I want 8.5 or not coming, wt my work location. reply by 12pm"I got so angry on him, I spoke 2 my boss n during the weekend my boss spoke 2 him, n on Sunday night he mesged I will cum in 8.2 Lacks. Not so surprisingly on Monday he doesnt turn up, n @ around 2:00pm mails I will join after 2 days!!!! FUCKKKK.... FInally we revoked his offer n now he is calling n sayings " I sorry. I making lots of mistakhas, I cuming I liking Patni"!!!!
If I everr meet him... I wud kill him I swear 2 GODDDDDDDDD
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Nagaon Beach - Alibaug
I wanted to blog this since last 2 weeks. On Valentine's day I had being to Alibaug with my family. 1 of the beaches I visited was Nagaon beach. We reached that place just before sunset, n beleive me when I say this, its a lil drop of heaven on earth. The beach is calm n black sand beach, n in front of the beach are rows n rows of long trees.. I think they r pine, but not sure...n so evenly grown...looks like God acted as an architect while planting them :). For 1se the beach doesnt have any shops or shacks, so its absolutely clean....
When the sun was setting, the water gliters like diamonds studded on the beach... the repels of the waves ending on the beach, creating a beautiful design on the shore n gives u a feeling that God is now an interior decorator... The sound of waves slashing against eachother n the cool breeze adds to the magic of being there. I close my eyes n I can still remember the feeling....Its beyond words...U feel calm n quite inside ur heart....The problems in your life seems so distant, away in the city. here you will close to almighty. he is walking with you n healing you with his magic...
I would love to go there 1se with the person I love, n the day I do, I will blog it again 4 myself...
When the sun was setting, the water gliters like diamonds studded on the beach... the repels of the waves ending on the beach, creating a beautiful design on the shore n gives u a feeling that God is now an interior decorator... The sound of waves slashing against eachother n the cool breeze adds to the magic of being there. I close my eyes n I can still remember the feeling....Its beyond words...U feel calm n quite inside ur heart....The problems in your life seems so distant, away in the city. here you will close to almighty. he is walking with you n healing you with his magic...
I would love to go there 1se with the person I love, n the day I do, I will blog it again 4 myself...
New Romantic Song
Has anyone heared the new song from Raaz, Soniyo??? Its so lovely, makes u beleive in LOVE!! Its my current fav song... I just have a big smile on my face hearing that song!! I hope someday the guy of my life will sing that song for me.... The thought drives u to sum other world, far from here... where ur not restricted or binded with situations... there is no work pressure, a place where people get hurt v rarely.. A place where people have time for eachother... to enjoy to be there...
n back to the real world... :) enjoy the song guys... n do let me know, whtz ur current fav song?
Thursday, February 19, 2009
A new kind of Life
Its being 2 weeks since I have moved to Pune. For those who are not aware, I have being deputed to Pune for 3 months for a specific assignment. In a notice of 2 days I had to move here! Thank God I have my bro who stays here, so I got shelter. I have being always being in the warm cacoon of home, where I do not have to worry about anything, except may be trying to keep my room clean. Its a whole new experience here.. n the strangest part being, I used 2 feel so bad to eat alone, n now I just love eating on my own...
At different times, we have different views of the same siuation... I guess thats what is called, growing up... I like Pune city... the weather is keeping me away from diseases... n its quite pleasant in terms of temperature.. People here are seem warm...
I definately miss home, my team, my friends.. but I think I needed this experience n I am completely exploring it. :)
At different times, we have different views of the same siuation... I guess thats what is called, growing up... I like Pune city... the weather is keeping me away from diseases... n its quite pleasant in terms of temperature.. People here are seem warm...
I definately miss home, my team, my friends.. but I think I needed this experience n I am completely exploring it. :)
Friday, January 23, 2009
Is crying that bad???
Is crying that bad?
For people who know me well, know this about me I cry a lot. I am not a kind of person who can keep emotions inside n it always bursts out as tears. My well-wishers always advice me it’s a wrong thing to take every little thing to your heart n its no point crying. They are of the opinion people who make you cry do not value your tears. Well I basically wasn’t as bad as I am from past 1 yr or so… due to events in last 1 yr, I sometimes find myself helpless n tears just keep pouring down…Like even if I see an emotional scene of a show, where som1 is being misunderstood or being hurt, I feel the jolt inside my stomach n the knot down my throat!! It’s a bit unnatural as I wasn’t so emotionally handicap before!!
What my question is, is it that wrong to be emotional? Luckily I am not emotional with regards to work, its only my private matters that I take utter care for! Like my parents, friends, partner! Is it wrong to be hurt if they do something wrong… Is it IMP u need to rational all the while? Y shouldn’t or can’t you have expectations from such close associates! N if after having healthy relation, something small goes wrong n you cry, y is such a big deal! I love them, n so I get hurt easily n so I cry! People are different right? Its not that I blame them, I just expect certain things from them! N foremost thing is that I am a person who cries, so please deal with the issue sensitively! I know most guys cannot handle crying woman n flee from the 1st door out… I think its unfair.. Guys have millions of habits which annoy us, n we do handle them sensitively.
SO any of you emotional fools as me, come to the open n confess your weakness!!
Happy Bloging
For people who know me well, know this about me I cry a lot. I am not a kind of person who can keep emotions inside n it always bursts out as tears. My well-wishers always advice me it’s a wrong thing to take every little thing to your heart n its no point crying. They are of the opinion people who make you cry do not value your tears. Well I basically wasn’t as bad as I am from past 1 yr or so… due to events in last 1 yr, I sometimes find myself helpless n tears just keep pouring down…Like even if I see an emotional scene of a show, where som1 is being misunderstood or being hurt, I feel the jolt inside my stomach n the knot down my throat!! It’s a bit unnatural as I wasn’t so emotionally handicap before!!
What my question is, is it that wrong to be emotional? Luckily I am not emotional with regards to work, its only my private matters that I take utter care for! Like my parents, friends, partner! Is it wrong to be hurt if they do something wrong… Is it IMP u need to rational all the while? Y shouldn’t or can’t you have expectations from such close associates! N if after having healthy relation, something small goes wrong n you cry, y is such a big deal! I love them, n so I get hurt easily n so I cry! People are different right? Its not that I blame them, I just expect certain things from them! N foremost thing is that I am a person who cries, so please deal with the issue sensitively! I know most guys cannot handle crying woman n flee from the 1st door out… I think its unfair.. Guys have millions of habits which annoy us, n we do handle them sensitively.
SO any of you emotional fools as me, come to the open n confess your weakness!!
Happy Bloging
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Annoying Habits of Loved Ones
All of us have annoying habits, n more often than not; we are unaware of it. Interestingly most of the people around us are also unaware. But then, there will be 1 police officer who will know it all, n if he breaks the news to the others around, all of them will be sentient suddenly n that’s when it gets irritating!! Like for example, my dad is a loud chewer, but me n mom never noticed until 1 day, sister pointed… Since then we cant ever over hear his load chewing!!! :D
So basically we all have such stupid habits… Mine is, I am a loud sleeper!! :D Yet when you love a person, se habits never seem to bother so much… I mean ur friends wouldn’t stop talking to you just cause you have an annoying habit. Also strangely you will never ever notice an annoying habit of your partner, but all your friends will notice the same!! Aggrrrhhhh… I will not mention who has this, but I know som1 who sniffs a lot!! I mean all the time like a DOG!! But my friend finds her “angel dropped from heaven just for him!!!” But its cute that people not only accept others the way the are, more so fall in love with their imperfections!!!
Happy Loving fellow bloggers
So basically we all have such stupid habits… Mine is, I am a loud sleeper!! :D Yet when you love a person, se habits never seem to bother so much… I mean ur friends wouldn’t stop talking to you just cause you have an annoying habit. Also strangely you will never ever notice an annoying habit of your partner, but all your friends will notice the same!! Aggrrrhhhh… I will not mention who has this, but I know som1 who sniffs a lot!! I mean all the time like a DOG!! But my friend finds her “angel dropped from heaven just for him!!!” But its cute that people not only accept others the way the are, more so fall in love with their imperfections!!!
Happy Loving fellow bloggers
Thursday, January 1, 2009
HAPPY 2009
New Year is the time to bid farewell to the old year and welcome the coming year. It is the time to forget and get past memories that are no longer useful or worth pondering upon. It is the time for new beginnings and new starts in life. New Year has a message for each one of us. One should let go of the past that has bad memories and accept what has happened, has happened for some reason. Instead of clinging onto your past and things that have gone, it is better to let go.
There is an old saying that goes, "Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened". This essentially means that there is no use crying over spilt milk. You cannot turn back time and do things that would benefit you. Accept that some days you are the pigeon and some days you are the statue. New year is the time of new beginnings. It is time to start afresh and do things that would make someone else smile. Make a pledge to make at least one person happy. You will see the difference it can make in both your lives. The essential message of New Year is let go off the past and embrace life as it comes to you. You will be happier and merrier that way.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
There is an old saying that goes, "Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened". This essentially means that there is no use crying over spilt milk. You cannot turn back time and do things that would benefit you. Accept that some days you are the pigeon and some days you are the statue. New year is the time of new beginnings. It is time to start afresh and do things that would make someone else smile. Make a pledge to make at least one person happy. You will see the difference it can make in both your lives. The essential message of New Year is let go off the past and embrace life as it comes to you. You will be happier and merrier that way.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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